The medic life fairytale

“There is always going to be another mountain”

“Im always gonna wanna make it move” 

Exam season. But i was never forgotten. Happy.

To children , time is play

To adult time is money

To doctor time is lives

“sometimes in life u dun get from the expected, but life surprises u with things from the unexpected.”

and at the end of the day u feel happy by people who cares about you when you just dont see it. And these people never expect anything in return but ur happiness. Whoa! Life…

All are random thoughts.

I think exams is like ketamine. Ok ill tell u why.

DURING EXAM: FEEL NO PAIN even if u have any pain u ignore it, the exam stimulus is strong enough to rub pain away ( analgesic effect )

bUT u get increased sympathetic response right? Increased( bp, hr, rr , tpr, icp ) and bronchodilatation. Makin it good for asmatic and bad for ppl with inc. ICP.

After exam: u forget the experience. Like u go “how did i went thru sem1234 stress? i forgot. ( amnesia )

It causes hallucination however. Like u will imagine…die la! i cant answer die la. ( or at least this is just me )…then u hallucinate the worst scenario.

Btw its called dissociative amnesia! the whole thing. Patient appears concious but they are nt.

Ok and if i think of Jacksonian partial epilepsy i imagine Michael Jackson doing his dance…and correlate it. ( for further explanation can ask me straight )

Anyways…hope it does help u guys who cant remember ketamine. Its my favourite drug for now Besides my loyal Caffeine. Oh wait i shud try cannabis ( marijuana one day ) since it has no dependence effect. Can kick it off when im bored of it. Makes me sound like a drug addict ? u bet.

Ealing: about Edinburgh. Thanks And no dear, u are not the one making me upset. No worries. Tinnnnitus!

today is my final hospital visit. Woohoo.

“GOOD RIDENCE pbl” roderick. Yup our final pbl.

Everything is ending. I hope.

Last bus ride to seremban officially.

Im liking clinical school. weeehaaa.

Everytime go there get to see senior.

Yes again today. Lucky me! right timing.

handsome doctor not there today. and all the girl even GUY were discussing bout that lengzhai doctor while in the bus.

Nvm. More lengzhai doctor once we enter clinical school.

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It sucks when people dun take the effort to do things and aspect to take your effort done. It sucks. sigh. I mean we both have the same capability. Why dont u take the effort too for ur own self than depend on others.

It sucks more when you just dont know how to tell them off.

Today i had enough. I had enough of people. One after another. Grrrh.

I havent reach my threshold to blast them off just yet. But if i do it can get ugly.

Sometimes its not that i dont wanna help but its cause ppl are not helping themselve. So why should i bother.

enough of ranting.

On a brighter note. I met a new friend who taught me throughout the bus journey. Now thats what i want everyday. God grant me the wish?

maybe im just tired. And sick of people!

Do you ever get sick of people?

People who you are close with?

I do. And i am sick of feeling sick of such people.

They are a pain!

A sickness rippling your energy just bearing their nuisance.

Yeah if only i could slap that on their face. Sometimes i wish God would grant me the courage to do so. Blast them with high intensity. WHoa aggressive eh?

But i cant. Instead i have to pretend everything is alright. SICKENING not?

Yea. a disease i tell u.

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MPH has came to IMU! aw a dream come true. Almost everyday i step into the book fair. The same section. And look. and stare. I MISS READING! I miss my books. Shitty exams. GURRRRRH…I have been aiming this one book. And everyday i go to see if its still available. If only i have the time THIS INSTANCE.

Which reminded me of my interview before i enter this glory world of medicine.

The doctor( interviewer ): in medicine you can no longer read, no times for your story books. Why do you still want to do medicine? ( i was asked)

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On a happier note.

Today im happy . JAPANESE BUFFET. a dream come true. Thanks!

so what have you learned today?

my answer: to be contented…

In medicine. I see things. Things normal people dont see. I see images. Everyday. I deal with possibility of death. Everyday i deal with decision. Love. Sadness. I deal with the question. WHy me? Why him? why her? I deal with things you dont see along the streets. I deal. Passion. Interest. Most importantly sometimes i ask myself. Is it worth it.

Today i see. How the brain can be. For certain people. Unperfect. Its sad. I see. I try not to feel.

Sleep. All i need. You. MoTIvate me.

I believe in angels.

God send two to me this month.

And im going to remember how small the things they think they did which appear very big to me.

Thank you both of u. Thank you seniors.

Without you guys i think ill be bluring away for csu and ims.

They may be far, but if i reach out, they are there for me. Its a wonderful feeling in such time…

Love you two seniors.

Oh wait and to you too . My very very very HELPFUL junior.

“U need to balance between the two.sleep and study” - advice of the month from senior. I will try.

Happy and contented.

Handsome doctor.

Dedicated to teaching.

Makes me understand.

Nice patient.

Seniors.

Hectic.

Waiting for the UK senior reply.

Tired.

“If your afraid to look into my eyes, look at my nose not my nostril”

confidence when presenting a case.

Care for patient.

“Life is an adventure”

Updates? Haha…

Ok life been pretty hectic. Blame CSU. Blame pbl. Blame lazy cherlynn.

But it has been pretty happening lately.

Studies. Life. People.

The outing with Dr Annie was enriching.

The bowling competition was a gift. ( thanks pa n ma for ur ultimate support and exciteness…oh and my captain aliff for the golden chance. And my team mates u guys are supportive even till the end )

Oh and the best thing…i finally got in contact with a senior who actually wrote the ’seniors manual’ we are all using. Amazing right? All while i wondered since sem1. Who is this kind soul who took all the effort to write this ‘book’ and helped us survived thru med school. One day i decided. I MUST FIND THE ANSWER. And i got it.

One of them. He is training as a doctor now in UK. How cool is that? And he is the 2nd person i told my wish besides kalai.

My hope of studying in Edinburgh. ( miracles )

Edinburgh will u ever wait for me. Even if i have to take a long route to reach u?

Hope to be further inspired by this doctor. Oh wait…my senior. Haha:)

Honestly everytime i feel like giving up i just think of the doctor in SGH. To be exact …DR Eugene ( not dr JM …to:kalai ). I will recall how he was so dedicated to give me the chance. Willing to teach me in the surgical ward. Not scolding me when i was weak. It makes me think…i must not give up.

One day…maybe one day…

Dream too much! Blame the cough medicine…it sipped thru my blood brain barrier and cause me sleepiness… Grrrh

Oh i love the BRAINS

Today we learn about the brain.

There was this part about emotions and how its hard to control.

There was this part the lecturer said.

“Human have some behaviour that needs to be repeated…like eating, drinking, sexual propagation…u repeat cause u cant get enough. So its apetitive ( like apetite )…”

LAUGHTER….lecture hall. Im guessing. Ya u noe what i mean. What they laughing bout.

And there was another part. The lips has a lot of sensory receptors.

Laugh again.

“Not for just any use. Its for eating.”…i think the Dr paiseh d. I mean why do u need sensory for eating in the lips. U need it in the tongue not? Haha…ok u noe what im trying to say here rite? What else were they laughing for?

Erm if u still dont get it i will give a direct explanation next time.

Back to vertebra notes.

I must love anatomy. I must love love love it.

YOUNG MAN, MORNING STIFFNESS IN THE BACK. whats ur diagnosis?( even this also they laugh wor. Especially the guys. Why ne? ) —–the answer is ankylosing spondilitis disease.

Contradicting facts.

Arrrggghhh just what i need for last min work.

Tmr pbl. await disaster. Im going to screw up the investigation test and treatments for Slipped disc.

Sharks. Uni starts tmr … hello to final system.

Erp friend…words thru fb status…”dont complain, work harder” ok…i will try.

I miss home.

Some things just dont change.

I paid the price. Im drug dosed. My stomach turned bad.

Had only two meals today. Due to all the air. Grrrh.

Went to Wendys. Tot of msging buddy. Used godmum’s free food coupons. No wonder im getting fatter. But i could not finish even one burger. All my fault. Just felt like vomiting due to all the air. Let mom have my share. Neways. I hope im not anorexic. Bullemic. Food makes me wanna throw up. Oh no. The sign of stress.

Im talking a whole lot of nonsense.

Bowie thanks. U made my day. as always.

NERVE DEGENERATION…bangs bangs bangs.

Ok i must refrain from blogging. 6th precepts DO NOT BLOG WHEN U NEED TO STUDY. Sadhu.